baby toes
his toe hurts
on the inside
my insides recoil –
is this it then?
it’s still weeks
(if not months)
til we know
do you remember
those round baby toes
tender as sweet peas?
they’re always on the inside –
my infant sons
embedded in these now lanky
sometimes sullen
more often wise and generous souls
like reverse ancestors
ghosts of their young selves
bound to the present
shades/shadows stitched to their current forms
when they were born
the curious asked
what’s the hardest part?
being so vulnerable
(I always knew)
so many new ways to come to harm –
these beings from my body
out in the sometimes indifferent world
and I so imperfect to guard them well enough
tonight I will pray
for soft pink carefree souls
toes running barefoot tomorrow
dodging disaster
one more day
