poetry

Dias Beach Absolution

Dias Beach Absolution

upon rounding sharp cliffs
after the men voted no confidence
and the final three days the crew allowed
before their bellies would mutiny
(a pathetically short extension
to reach a hopelessly faraway shore)
had elapsed with no end of Africa in sight
after he halted and buried
he dreams of Indian spices
at Kwaaihoek on the eastern Cape
the unused padrões lay heavy in the hold
and the threat of returning
to the mindless minding of Lisbon’s warehouses
grew more terrifying with each league
of aquamarine the São Cristóvão sliced through
he saw this crescent of inviting beach
and he fell upon it

I forgive you,
Bartolomeu,
for wanting to sink your ankles
in fine white sand
for wishing to slake your salty thirst
with waterfall
for wanting to warm yourself
by a blaze fed by armloads of driftwood
for nestling your body
into the yielding dunes
that molded themselves to your hips
for soiling this land with your unwanted presence

before the Khoikhoi hurled rocks in righteous anger
before the Cabo das Tormentas
seized your own heart and limbs
despite all the damage
your kind wrought
I forgive your need for one night
of slowly spinning stars

poetry

in-humanity

in-humanity

things that can be taken away:
your family
your clothing
your bed
your blankets
your food
your books
your name
your dignity

what then remains?
sometimes
your will to resist
your sense of self
your purpose
your words
your unspoken name
your hunger for justice
your resolve to forgive

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losing the sea

losing the sea

today I couldn’t recall
amphipod
sat silent
while my children said
little shrimp
rolled that springy bugger around
in the back of my brain
all afternoon
without a name surfacing

only at night
by the artificial blue glow
searching little shrimp
does it come to me
in zeroes and ones:
amphipod
different foot

it’s been so long since I had sea legs
I’ve lost this basic building block
of 9000 species
all over our watery planet
ubiquitous
fundamental
shameful not to know

my children aren’t familiar with ocean
they take nothing for granted
have to root around for words
(they don’t have breakers swell spray strand dulse urchin anemone holdfast)
they say:
the waves are in white lines like dissolving sugar
like drifts of snow

making do with similes
for what they don’t yet know

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Our Hope for Humanity: Vuyi with diopmawu and me

When we visited the Norval Foundation art museum in Cape Town, South Africa today I was delighted to find wonderful poetry handwritten on sacred texts scattered around the exhibits. I asked at the front desk about the artist who created this work, and was told that it was part of a performance piece that day called Historical Glitch, and the artist would be performing at 2pm. We had already signed up for a guided tour at that time, so I also asked the guide if we needed to choose between the two events, and she explained that the artist would perform at the end. Our family waited to see what would happen, and a woman with a very long braid descended the stairs and then sat among spiritual implements like drums, stones, flowers, red clay, and a pan of water. A man knelt in front of her and they took hands and quietly talked while she washed and massaged his hands in ritual fashion. It was a loving and forgiving gesture. I thought maybe he was part of the performance piece, but then she looked at me and invited me to join her. She explained that we were doing an intervention to heal the wounds of division from colonialism and the harming of our earth, to remember that we are all one. It was very moving, and in our brief conversation she intuited some things about me that were spot on. Owen took a turn, too. It was another gift from the universe – the only way that I even heard about the museum was thanks to the fact that yesterday when we had lunch we walked past the Simons Town information center. I don’t usually go into those, but something made me double back and see what information they had. The Norval brochure said “Where art, architecture, and nature meet” – yes, please! Today our main goal was to go to the Indonesian consulate, and it ended up being a quick visit because they explained they only issue visas to South African nationals. Unsure what to do instead, I sifted through the brochures and noticed that Norval has a monthly free day on the first Thursday of the month – today! And it was on our way back home. We stopped at their lovely restaurant first, but through a mixup it took about an hour for our order to even be taken – another stroke of luck, since we probably would have left before two otherwise. When you’re open to it, the universe finds a way. Tonight I did some research and found her name: Vuyi Qubeka. When she performs, her name is listed as “Vuyi Qubeka with diopmawu,” which I think means her spirit guides/ancestors. I didn’t find a website or email address for her, but she’s active on Instagram and Twitter, and you can watch her TED talk about becoming a healer: “Don’t Die with Your Song Still Inside You.” I incorporated some of her well-chosen words in this thank you gift which I hope makes its way to her!

Our Hope for Humanity: Vuyi with diopmawu and me

she comes bearing songs
born of red clay,
an intervention
inviting audacious hope

she holds a circle of water
that dissolves guilt,
makes new space
for radical compassion:
the resolve to see
All One Always

palm to palm
we make a circuit –
loving energy looping
round our own tiny peaceful
world of now,
smiling eye to eye,
joyful servants to the work
of binding wounds
and stitching things whole
even as the seams strain

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stuffy confidential

stuffy confidential

slowly they come to tell me the news
a parade of fuzzy confidences:
Pete
Kiki
Mr. Fuzzles
Yip-Yappin’ Coyote (the Yip-Yappin’ Yapster)

I snuggle them one by one
pat each bottom like a baby perched on my shoulder
listen close as they whisper in my ear
touch my nose to their synthetic fur
to breathe in childhood
and the relief of de-stressing distress
look into all the beautiful brown eyes in the room
and nod

I’m here
I’m listening
you are loved

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bush buffet

bush buffet

you can’t eat the scenery
she said about Vermont
but lounging at Shayamoya
I take in great gulps
of Jozini and Lobombo
clean my teeth
with tiger fish nets
listen close under canvas
for the pulse of wave
or rattle of train
fill a leaking bucket
with jawsome hugs
as usual try to notice
what’s not being said
fill up on cricket song and eagle cries
thirsty
in a country waiting for rain

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safari after dark

safari after dark

in the filtered morning sun
we take tea in the fig forest canopy
under the armed guide’s watchful eye
and rifle barrel

in the evening
after the last dish is rinsed
and the moon, Milky Way, constellations admired
it’s time to give way to the wild
retreat to our tents
and hide

it’s a long night
with what will be a full bladder
and the next tap running nonstop
the monkeys have turned it on
and it’s too close to the trees = leopards
and the hyena that won’t stop its maudlin haunting yip
for me to think about conserving anything
beyond my own skin

we’re interlopers here
I see clearly
when the dark sets in
and the bush rustles

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in the bird hide

in the bird hide

in the bird hide
everything is simple
all we’re invited to do
is be:
come look notice appreciate praise

avocado green water laps
against deep brown stilts
a fresh breeze filters in
ruffles the novel pages
and scatters the Coke cans
nyala, impala sidle down to sip
and our eyelids droop
while nothing much transpires

until all in a moment
two wooly-necked storks
descend with a clatter
throw rainbows our way
then remind us
what love looks like –
gently plucking parasites
from the beloved’s trusting neck

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lantern light

lantern light

that warm glow of being burned
just gentle enough to sleep by

cabins and miners and romance
mixed with kerosene’s greasy smell

liquid light in glass
raising and lowering the wick

snug nostalgia
now nearly snuffed out