poetry

prayer to end procrastination

prayer to end procrastination

my son rattles off his high school deadlines
with certainty
positive he’ll get it all in on time

oh Lord
may I sit down
with a clear heart
and hours of untasked time
to subtract out the use tax money
and write the overdue
or early
(depends how you look at it)
grant report

may I cheerfully pound out what’s needed
and then sleep
untroubled by doubt’s cold flames

poetry

encouraging words

encouraging words

boxes stacked toward the ceiling
of the still living room
I sift through the papers
of the years
of heartstrings

so many souls
keep us alive
and more –
keep us dreaming and doing
becoming more than we might have
exceeding our own expectations
stretching to just barely
nudge against theirs

poetry

never enough time

never enough time

seconds flash by like
bullet trains
possibilities closed off
for what feels like forever
choosing choosing choosing
living with a lump in my throat
and an eye on the sweep
of the second hand
barely time to gather the beloveds
in a hug
and all this in a time
when our past life has slowed
to the mere vibration of
a solid
its crystal lattice holding space
for us to do something
meaningful
deliberate
intentional
with time now
and still it’s not enough
at least I haven’t made it be enough
to be able to rest

poetry

doubt

doubt

typing up the manuscript
one moment it’s
wow!

next minute I hear internal paper crumpling
along with my confidence

is it any good?
does it have any teeth
any heart
any tears?
(I’m decidedly uninterested in brains)

sometimes I feel like
I’m removing my insides
polishing them up
artfully plating them for consumption
then nervously waiting for them
to be sent back to the kitchen

other times I feel
I’m just spinning candy floss
making a big sweet pastel globe
of fluffy nothingness
good on the tongue
but nothing to bite into
nothing to stick to your bones
and keep you going
when you’re out chopping wood

I don’t know
what the world wants
from what I can do

all I can do is trust
keep learning and growing wiser
keep giving what I manage to make
and take pleasure watching
my work leave my hands
not worrying so much
about where it comes to rest

poetry

egg gathering

egg gathering

put your hand
deep into the dark
feel around
for something smooth
draw back out
cradling a warm sphere
made of echoing rings
little wondrous worlds
rich nourishment
to fuel your waking

poetry

mud people

mud people

Then there were the first humans, whose job it was to offer prayer, tell stories, and remember the passage of time. Made of the clay of this earth, the mud people of the first creation did not endure; when it rained, their bodies grew soft and dissolved.
– “Creations” from Dwellings by Linda Hogan

mud people
we soft squish
puddle and
wear away

tears run rivulets
into furrows into
cracks into
crumbles

we have no hard
to hang onto
no set stone spine

instead we bend bow sway
pray palms high
heart pressed low to
earth’s chest listening
to pulse and wave
pliant supplicants
consumed by awe

all we need
is to make:
prayer / tale
sound salve
time taste

and for you to please take
what our muddy palms
hold out open
trembling

poetry

mission 2020

mission 2020

I want to burn
some bittersweet love for being
into your heart and brain

until your passion
for this little life spark
won’t stay inside you either

and we all break down
these flimsy plastic facades
that keep warm bodies stiff

and nurture every last
needy other soul
(yes, even our own)

poetry

sound work

sound work

I am rolling o’s and l’s
into lolling logjams

pushing s’s and z’s
into lazy buzzes

growling r’s gutturally
until they resound
in the hollow chamber of your chest

trying to use
little dots and lines
to make you feel
something
new in your body
not just your conscious crown

poetry

two masters

two masters

with a limited number of breaths
where shall I put my time:
making
or
finding homes for what I have made?

the simple answer is
both

the harder answer is
I will run out of air
before I can sleep

poetry

Ode to 2 AM

Ode to 2 AM

to the computer battery, giving up the ghost
the screen going blank
whirring fan going silent

to the dry pen barrel
nothing left to give

to my heavy lids
and slumped torso
fighting off inevitable sleep

to the freezer icemaker
rattling me awake

to the steady ticks
of the analog clock
marking the dark seconds
until light breaks

to the silent sleeping souls
whose cacophony makes
the swirling days splendid
and whose blessed nighttime stillness
allows thoughts to form
and expand like clouds
blowing up over the plains
adrift heavy with the promise of rain
that might soak and satisfy
the columbines
bowed by the house’s heat

to the locked doors
keeping the bears at bay

to the chocolate and wine
whispering in the cupboard
and the warm bed
countering their call

to the fuzzy blanket
tucking me in
in my half-asleep state
agreeable for examining
the dreamy subconscious

to the paper obediently absorbing
graphite, ink, ideas, my self

to those who will
put up with me tomorrow
and those who cluck their tongues
at my questionable habits
my inability to do
what’s right and reasonable

to the quiet stars straining
to put all this and more
into expanded perspective

to the sofa’s creak
when I finally tear myself away

to all these
I insincerely promise
I will do better tomorrow
(goodnight)