poetry

burn scars

burn scars

absentmindedly scanning the landscape
for rubble and char

catching the thought
…so this didn’t burn…
a thousand miles from fire

the way I think
…where’s her mask?…
watching an old movie

fire’s burned its way into my psyche
like pandemic terror

like checking every black shape here for condor
or every sunny drizzle seeking rainbow

poetry

tending to time

tending to time

already the to-do list
has spilled off the table
and squeezed under the doorjamb
smothering to-be time

I’m making a small circle of now
outlining places to file down
to keep things smooth

life mindlessly carries us along
until we remember
to tend rootlets all around

poetry

Cedar at the sit spot

Cedar at the sit spot

sometimes when I’m sitting quietly
waiting for nothing
he comes
it’s the sweetest sort of communion
Tous neyei3eibeihii*
he says to the tree that shelters us
and we sit together
contemplating the creek
the woods
the snow
and mostly the gift
of another soul
who knows how to be
silent still attentive and grateful
he magnifies my joy

* “Hello, teacher” in Arapaho/Hinóno’éí

poetry

letting go of corporate

letting go of corporate

things to let go:
traffic jams
commuting
smog
the brown cloud
staff meetings
getting splashed with slush by a passing bus
alarm clocks
business casual
casual Friday
high heels
happy hour
time sheets
parties you don’t want to be at
social obligations
close talkers
meet-n-greets
networking
looking at your watch
worrying about the meter
parking in the garage with the tight spots
getting out of jams at work
the paper circles falling out of the 3-hole punch
ice breakers
appetizers
hors d’oeuvres
the confusion involved in spelling hors d’oeuvres
ties
filing
annual reports
board meetings
staying awake at conference tables
small talk
performance reviews
hiring interviews
the smell of the office refrigerator
caffeinating to make it through the day
shredding paper
voicemails
choosing between the elevator and the stairs
getting home after dark
leaning your head against the bus window
(ok, maybe keep that last one –
a bit of meditative time
when the world unrolls before you
and you’re suspended between your two lives
having surrendered the driver’s seat for a spell)

poetry

The Good News (inspired by Thich Nhat Hanh)

The Good News (inspired by Thich Nhat Hanh)

Moon Creek will sing
whether we’re on the earth
or under it

the blue sky
will get bluer
without contrails

the twisted path that brought us here
today lets me make friendship offerings
to birds and foxes
whose bright beating hearts remind me
we’re not alone

my mother, planning for her death
in a place where I can’t hold her hand
smiles bravely, assures my sister and me
she’s lived her life of service
without regret

now there is so little left
in the way of importance
I sit on the side of the creek
while the snowy banks run to water
doing nothing
only being
only listening
when a mountain chickadee
who has heard nothing of the end of days
flits to a flat rock in the channel
then wades in
delightedly splashing clean cold water
all over her plump fluffed self

it takes a long time
for her to stop savoring the sensation
she jumps from one branch to the next
shaking all her feathers loose
bustling with the busy joy
of water sun and wind

and I am still here to see her
and you are still here to tell

poetry

memory/reboot/presence

memory/reboot/presence

every day
I walk around
trying to remember
to hit save

but sometimes
I feel
the green grass
just wants me
to press against it
mindlessly

poetry

mindful silence

mindful silence

in the deep dark of the glowworm cavern
there’s no chatter, no photos
(our guide warned)
and we are immersed/transfixed
by black water rushing below us
while above constellations of electric blue blips
are scattered at random like so many stars
all we can do is suck in our breath
and look

later a woman asks
Why did we need to be quiet?
So we could all enjoy it
our guide says without apology
without hearing where
you’re going to dinner

poetry

not hearing the sea

not hearing the sea

after only four days
the waves have receded
the sound only registers
when I train my attention
on the pleasing steady unevenness
they’ve kept up below
ever since we arrived

so soon we become
senseless of wonder
even when it whispers
in our ears all day

poetry

charm

charm

by the gas station
incense changes my mood
the little red shrine has been visited
and offerings made

candles flicker and a thin trail of smoke
from the glowing sticks
matches a flow of good will and energy

flames give movement, life
to the unnamed warrior guarding
this otherwise nondescript
strip mall
slaying inattentiveness