poetry

birthday season

birthday season

we’re so glad you’re here
your spark makes our lives glow
and since you drew your first breath
things have never been the same

we’re saying this
with candles and cards
wrapping and ribbon
doughnuts and ice cream
Sharpie on the door jamb
marking your ascent into adulthood
friends and family stopping by
to throw the floodlight of their love
squarely in your grinning face

every year we mark the miracle
that you arrived at all
(and better yet – you are amazing
and better still – we still breathe together
now)

poetry

learning a language

learning a language

tongue clicks purrs jaws grinding stretching holding up one leg a sharp call
and a low warble
moment by moment
we learn how to speak
parrot
or lover
or child
each time banking on
the patience and goodwill
of our innocent instructor
we learn a new way
to say what we need

poetry

awaiting Perseids

awaiting Perseids

gazing up at Cygnus
winging her way westward
pushing Hercules out of the way
we learn bright new names
think of Arab princes
in towers millenia before us
seeing nearly the same shapes and colors

for as unpredictable
as a single day here is
a lifetime blinks by
with the stars in the same shapes
or nearly so
as they took
when your grandfather
was only a boy

poetry

13 in 2020

13 in 2020

he needs a bigger bookcase
and pants that fit
a haircut strategy
and a phone of his own (eventually…)
he needs to be pulled outside
to get his blood pumping
and unify body + mind

he needs to know
when normal will resume
a timeline for his tropical dreaming
when he can next dust off that life list
how many years until his passport
will be stamped again
he needs some certainty
about where he’s going
and when

and all I know for sure is
none of us knows what’s next
but wherever he is
is even more wonderful
for his deep-feeling heart

poetry

ancestors

ancestors

we are here
and we see you

each one of us trailed
by our ancestors’ shadows
radiating out from our small souls
like spokes from a turning wheel
like the infinite bodies extending
away from ours
in the dressing room mirror

when we speak
echoes of their beliefs rattle
through the drums of our chests
we are never alone
with us they say
in their own silent tones
we are here
and we see you

poetry

encouraging words

encouraging words

boxes stacked toward the ceiling
of the still living room
I sift through the papers
of the years
of heartstrings

so many souls
keep us alive
and more –
keep us dreaming and doing
becoming more than we might have
exceeding our own expectations
stretching to just barely
nudge against theirs

poetry

tending to time

tending to time

already the to-do list
has spilled off the table
and squeezed under the doorjamb
smothering to-be time

I’m making a small circle of now
outlining places to file down
to keep things smooth

life mindlessly carries us along
until we remember
to tend rootlets all around

poetry

inheritance

inheritance

what would he think of his wife
whittling away his children’s wealth
erasing their names
by the respective x’s,
and inserting her own,
including his difficult surname
that she’d earned
over the long hard years
lying beside his failing body

he was mostly all business
proud of his cold calculations
he watched the stock ticker crawl
from his hospital bed
and once, after opposing counsel shamed him,
he pinned the man in the courthouse elevator,
threatened him and others to come

but sometimes he was pleased
to unfist his hands
smugly magnanimous
glad to be the bigger man
or perhaps generous with guilt

I think he’d just be disappointed
in any one of us who failed to fight
his money wasted (he’d mutter)
on idiots
who ought to have learned
how to hold on to a gift

poetry

tweens

tweens

may I never forget
our boys at this age
searching the mud
for slick thick-bellied frogs
loose in their lengthening bodies
unconscious of the part of their hair
and whether anyone’s watching

poetry

Thunder Pass

Thunder Pass

we go to the mountains
to be awed
humbled by all the creations
more beautiful than ourselves
violet-blue delphinium
rose-pink queen’s crown
Snow Lake gleaming blue-grey
in midday sun
midway between summer and fall

we fall hopelessly in love
with big spaces
uncontrollable forces
feeling tiny and peaceful
blissfully letting go
of the illusion of control

we put one foot in front of the other
trusting the path
open to anything
thankful for each wondrous bit
of color light sound being
that passes our way