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Mayan Flower Healing Ceremony

Mayan Flower Healing Ceremony

Humans being human
are usually like The Breakfast Club:
we see each other’s humanity.

At the flower ceremony
we take turns speaking:
how hard the last two years have been,
how lost we’ve felt from losing the people we love.
We grieve alone, jointly.

Maya puts us on a cloud
and invokes our ancestors,
and, surprisingly,
they show up for us.

All the people from my bedtime prayer
gather in a way they never did in life
and, smiling,
(while tears streak my surprised face)
they say, over and over,
you know how to do it
and it could be anything.

All evening I’m buoyed by new confidence,
done with second-guessing,
sure about what to do,
whatever comes up.

Oh my ancestors,
for all the years I’ve known
how to say your names,
I never thought you’d say mine again.

Tonight I’m going to look for you
on that cloud once more,
now I know how to do it.

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the fire break holds

the fire break holds

it’s like a dream:
the pink lines hold
and the land stays land
and the sky stays sky
with only a hotspot here and there

how long will we have
before the great spatula comes
and mixes things again?

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NCAR Fire

NCAR Fire

the land itself belches smoke
long columns stretch to sky

we haven’t seen them linked before
these realms of earth and air

no safe time now
no safe place

every day the possibility
that earth will stream to sky

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unprepared for the future

unprepared for the future

I had seen it on Twitter –
the slurry bomber painting hills I know red –
but that didn’t prepare me
for magenta slashes across our landscape
visible miles away

just one more sign
I’m unprepared for the scale
of the crisis we’re in

fire everywhere
everywhen
our relationship with the land
will never be the same

our children will not know
how it was to live with smokeless skies
before the hockey stick curve
made itself felt
in our choking air

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NCAR Fire after Record Snow

NCAR Fire after Record Snow

another day spent tasting the air for smoke
checking in on friends
body twitching with fight or flight

and this after months of snow
more snow than we could dare dream of
still never enough to damp down the threat of flame

it’s all year now
it’s every elevation
it’s a whole new level
of never-safe

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firing up the activities

firing up the activities

the first night back
and I’ve traded sleep for doing

two states and one photo today:
that’s how it goes

we come into service
and the calendar balloons with commitments –

easing back into pre-pandemic busyness
we’ve less taste for it now

like lobsters who got a reprieve
we know the difference between tepid and roiling

today we saw tracks in sand
and the rest was a blur

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internal spring arrives

internal spring arrives

another blue sky day
not stuck in sand
not sickened or burned
all of us able to marvel
at Bryce’s delicate turrets
white snow green pines peach spires
grey caprock and blazing blue

we wend our way decision by decision
to Swasey’s Beach:
temps in the 70’s
finally in Chacos
the Green River a grey roar
our feet and dog crusted with silvered sand
finishing Wintering
beer in hand by campfire light

it’s finally spring on our internal calendars
we have turned the year
as Katherine May says
there’s a palpable end to dormancy
we feel our seedcoats split

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House Rock Valley Sunset

House Rock Valley Sunset

the last rays of sun fire the sky
and one son announces
he has a headache
and a runny nose

I help casually
without saying what I’m thinking:
is this our last pre-Covid-life sunset
and, if so,
will it take someone we love down

or

is this our last pre-Covid-life sunset
and, if so,
will it wash over us in an easy wave –
a bit of headache here
a scratchy throat there

will it leave us shaking our heads
at our years of precautions
friendships lost for nothing
so much restraint for so little cause

or at our reckless last week
unmasked with the masses
at the Grand Canyon
ears filled with other languages
noses filled with who knows what

but maybe
it’s just our last Arizona sunset til next year
unremarkable except for its normalcy
unworthy of this account

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burn scars

burn scars

absentmindedly scanning the landscape
for rubble and char

catching the thought
…so this didn’t burn…
a thousand miles from fire

the way I think
…where’s her mask?…
watching an old movie

fire’s burned its way into my psyche
like pandemic terror

like checking every black shape here for condor
or every sunny drizzle seeking rainbow

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Mather Campground Blessings

Mather Campground Blessings

all these little red fires
dotting the campground
sending smoke and heat and resin
into the night sky

all these cold white fiery points
glistening down from the black night
so many suns in our far-flung galaxy
a sea of milky possibilities

I’m seized by the profound joy of being here
on a by-and-large hospitable
(even in these uncertain disaster-prone days)
planet

thank you combustion
radiation
equilibrium
fire and night